writing & knowing

I always know the answer, deep down inside, and so do you. When making a big and difficult decision, flip a coin. You’ll either get the answer that you (secretly, subconsciously) wanted, or you’ll get the answer you realize you DIDN’T want, and all will become clear. Don’t trust the coin; trust your inside guts.

Mari Andrew
  • I am currently slow-reading this post by Mari Andrew.

[Slow and soft] are adjectives of my summer days. June was pausing my regular schedule to enjoy a four-generation vacation with my dad, my children and grandchildren in New Mexico.

[The] trees stir in their leaves and call out, “Stay awhile.”

Mary Oliver, “When I am Among the Trees”

  • My recent writing (offline and here), and the posts I shared in the private communities I host, has helped me map my way through the details of living [slow and soft]. And envision my next five (5) months …
    • After a lifetime of [do-more and try-harder], it was a healing delight to feel completely at-ease within recent summer days of rest and time with family and friends.
      • This new territory, to savor days of slowness — peacefully abiding with a sense of enoughness. ♥
    • “You do not have to be good. / You do not have to walk on your knees / for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. / You only have to let the soft animal of your body / love what it loves.” -Mary Oliver, “Wild Geese”

Whether or not you’re paying attention, your feelings are there, shifting your perspective and informing your reactions.

Caitlin Metz

  • Writing has helped me to become better acquainted with the details of slow and soft.
    • To shed my angsty second-guessing (via color-vents and found-words and layers of collage) distancing myself from my default reactions and habits rooted in perfectionism.
      • “Perfectionism is the feeling that things must be perfect to be good…” –Brit
      • “Perfectionism is like a small archway …” –Brit

[Hope Beaconess art by Mandy Steward]

Braveheart, I am allowing August to be August, sans any expectations; “moving through day-by-day, learning and growing as [I] go” (Morgan Harper Nichols). ♥

I am reminding myself that so many wishes have come true this summer, and how free I am now (from previous false-hopes, duties and responsibilities).

I am allowing myself more space (literally and figuratively) with more unscheduled time, along with a new work space, purging my closet and decluttering my studio; and also by moving into a larger size, monthly planner. 🙂

  • I love this monthly planner because, 1) I have the option of using it until June 2025 (that feels energizing!) 🙂 and, 2) I needed a larger-sized daily box for my “month-at-a-glance” journal-planner.

This week I have focused my time and energy on intentionally living my dailies differently in simple ways, like: a new walking path; menu changes; altering both my hourly and daily schedules; yoga, free-writing (listening to an all-instrumental playlist) before mark-making, adding to my art journals or being online.

  • I have resumed doing a session of the Daily Move on the Calm app.
  • August was already set to a new schedule of support activities (including weekly art therapy appointments and an online course that meets on Wednesday evenings).
  • This month will also include (hopefully) completing the reorganization of closets, dresser drawers and the furniture in the main bedroom of my home.
    • We are awaiting replacement drawers for a new king size bed frame we purchased.
    • And I am still working on how I actually want to rearrange my closet and dresser drawers. 😉

Braveheart, it is a joy to be writing more regularly. My deepest gratitude to those of you who have sent kind and affirming notes to me in response to my posts.

  • As I prepare the 2024 Annual Kit, I will also be sharing more posts on Ko-fi.

Sharing summary posts, ideas and examples from my right brain planning practice is a part of my right brain planning practice. Another reason I am so grateful for your presence here. ♥

~love & good wishes~

2023 Annual Kit | Ko-fi

P.S. A recent high point was a party to celebrate my eldest grandchild birthday. It inspired an afternoon dance party with this song on-repeat … ♥