there are no certain routes: when I am wandery

journal-planners with my collages + jots about my business plans + what I think is unfair right now

… you need to keep an honest, unpublishable journal that nobody reads, nobody but you. Where you just put down what you think about life, what you think about things, what you think is fair and what you think is unfair. -Madeleine L’Engle

My journal-planners tether me gently, serving as a means of tracking my start lines as well as my progress. Some entries are unpublished and read only by me; some entries are shared with women with whom I share community, and others shared publicly.

art by my youngest son when he was 10-years-old [found tucked in old files I sorted last week]

However, right now I am wandery in my words and expression; unable to sequence my thoughts and in a bit of a personal free-fall. Mentally transcribed into a fairy tale that includes beloved heroes, a fairy princess and a mermaid queen; a scorpion, an unnamed shapeshifter and a certain-uncertain ending.

A time warp of surrendering what I thought I knew and sorting through what was, to make room for what is becoming.

quarter-moon art from last week

Routines and worthy defaults (like my fourth-week-off work pattern and creating moon art) moved me through moments of feeling blind-sided by another person’s choices this past week. The will of my art moving me through emotional urges and reactions cued in response to watching tripped rows of cruel outcomes falling flat like carefully placed dominoes.

Palbo Neruda poem collage

Over and over I realize that my art is my guide; collaged words and jots of thought compiled in the midst of my routines empower me,  leading to meaningful progress.

I have learned to allow my progress to occur freely within the time frame of three moon cycles (approximately 3-months). Here is a breakdown of what I have observed about these cycles:

  • First Cycle — trial and error; living curious; wandering; defining/naming {it} and familiarizing myself with an idea [what I want to explore, attempt, accomplish or otherwise do differently]: “new moon” phase of an expedition or creative experiment.
  • Second Cycle — research and experiments; exploring and discovering; discussions and trial runs; confidence builds and formulations begin; narrowing down what is authentic for me; noting how I want to proceed: “quarter moons” phase of an expedition or creative experiment.
  • Third Cycle — THIS is when I truly begin to develop and implement new habits and determine the course; everything before this cycle is practice [lessons] for Next and Onward: “full moon” phase of an expedition or creative experiment.

When we peer deeply into each moment, we can see what that moment was designed to allow us to express. –Neale Donald Walsch

★ What does this have to do with planning? ★

You are the expert, Braveheart.

Honor your routines and preferences for creatively processing, documenting and “planning” your life; show up for yourself and to allow for the varying and ever-changing measures of what that looks like.

Notice your personal cycles and resist being “tamed” into believing someone else’s beliefs and formulas.

Your time is your life.

Live your life according to your pace. Allow for natural cycles — gradual progressions of knowns and unknowns — instead of cramming your life into lines and boxes ruled by numerals, expectations and external demands.

  • For me, I know for my life to evolve and flourish I need to name what I am facing (and feeling) instead of just ignoring it or minimizing. I need to allow silence and white space for ease and self-compassion — for listening in-Spirit. I also know that one week is the point of diminishing return and marks a start line to continue onward.

Deliberate practice is not a comfortable activity. It requires sustained effort and concentration. The people who master the art of deliberate practice are committed to being lifelong learners—always exploring and experimenting and refining. -James Clear

May planning pages

Create a basic journal-planner for May [template pages to fold in half + add color, collage and miscellany elements]:

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Braveheart, I believe art heals — and that art is as simple as abiding outdoors with the morning sky or jotting lists or having a favorite color. I created Right Brain Planner® because I needed a "planner" that offered space but didn't trigger my daily expectations. I needed a planner that was a journal — a place to creatively document my {living} + collect my blurts and random collage. Perhaps you are in need of the same? If so, I hope you will join me via our shared online connections. ♥