The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it. It’s our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows. ~Brene Brown, Gifts of Imperfection
- The dark for me as I sat outside tonight: tomorrow’s appointment with my oncologist; its what-if’s and follow-up to more waiting to know … thoughts about admitting that here.
- The light for me as I sat outside: watercolors skies; ease of the moments; romping around my {canine} grrls; secret messages and images from friends; remembering the invisible connections and light of friendships; awaiting my Rocket Man’s arrival home {with pizza} … thoughts about sharing that here.
- The fear … for me. A loss of control. Spirals of decisions. Suffering. Death. Single digits that define the probability of my life beyond ovarian cancer … not writing.
Fear doesn’t have to be dreaded.
But it does have to be faced {named} if we are to overcome it … and be strengthened in the pursuit of our dreams.
Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today. ~James Dean
♫♫ ELO, Hold on tight to your Dreams | Soundtrack of My Life
✩ What does this have to do with planning? Everything.
Update: Preliminary exam by my oncologist was very encouraging as there is no visible evidence that the symptoms I am experiencing is cancer-related; I am now awaiting the results of lab work. ♥
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Lucky that’s how I feel to have stumbled across you now. Yes it’s a cyberspace but through your honest, raw words I see your honest heart and feel your warmth. Sitting and reading your words is like sitting beside a fire on a cold night, warm, quiet, the perfect space for connection and dreaming. Tonight, tomorrow and all the days to come I will hold you in my thoughts. I will be the keeper of giid thoughts and I will be here to share thoughts, dreams, images of life. Most importantly I will always have the chocolate. Sending light and magic that one can only feel when they capture a moment of light and dark dancing with trees!
“But it does have to be faced {named} if we are to overcome it … ”
I know this is true but it’s so hard. To name. I’m going to be thinking on this today.
Theresa, thank you for naming your fears. It means so much. To know that perhaps I can sit here and send you loving light from many, many miles away. To know that you’re not alone.
We are not alone…
I visited my mum today. I took her for her first chemo session last Thursday. She’s doing great. Really. It’s her second cancer – and this time it can’t be cured… But this darkness really has defined her light. It has made it shine brighter – and she already was a sparkle.
You sparkle even in your darkness. Because of your fear and bravery. Holding you here in my heart today. And every day.
Thank you kindly, dear ones for your comments and sparkle. ♥ I know I have mentioned this Instagram … but I had to chuckle yesterday when I envisioned everyone with me in the exam room: crowded in, flinging glitter — all that light!
Let’s join together and name our fears — syllable by syllable we shall overcome! \o/
i’ve been having commenting issues and i really thought i’d tried to comment on this one….
this post is ab(soul)utely beautiful….
the image, and the truth here, and this marked passage of the journey.
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ab(soul)utely beautiful … ♥ Thank you, kindly.