And it couldn’t be more exciting! 
The number {40} is a number of significance to The Ancients for a complete cycle of preparation and prayer, tribulation and mourning. Something I researched after I journaled through the events {milestones} of the past 40 days, and noted the marked change and increase in clarity. As well as noting that the night sky is hosting the New Moon … A sacred time for Beginnings.
I have been writing and journaling-through several prompts and business decisions; assigning days of the week to project management. Sunday mornings are my time for art journaling in the journal I have for JF365 Challenge {Journal Fodder 365: Daily Doses of Inspiration by Eric M. Scott}.
As I continue to add notes to my Chapter 1 art journal pages I am delighted {relieved; pleased} to see a transition from posting to Facebook, to journaling my life in color and collage on the pages of my art journals.
Most of us have a love-hate relationship with Facebook … but it does have positives with regard to connecting us with people, collaboration and the process of becoming {more} of what we desire to be. We do record quite a bit about our mile markers, if merely clues that cue memories of a specific time.
The first chapter of this book is about compiling “Personal Mythologies and Histories” and includes thought-provoking prompts as well as extremely helpful ideas and techniques for journaling-through one’s histories. I am currently reading Chapter 2, Randomness and Chaos and it “feels” much easier to digest.
Last year was one of closure for me. Of daring myself to live free-er {unencumbered; transparent; vulnerable} and to resist my “cut and run” tenancies with regard to “too much” {complicated, risky, obligatory}.
The goal being to break out of old patterns and reactions to unfamiliar situations due to the realities of living with Multiple Sclerosis. I had decided my level of “safe” needed to be expanded; I wanted to see how much farther I could go — to commit to “more” {regarding my want-to’s}.
One of the simple ways to mark my advancements was to begin creating a weekly art card {a creative planning tool} — my 52 cards: Week 7/52. I have been posting here each Saturday, until yesterday due to some issues with load times with this site. Which also proved to nudge me closer to a system of using Tumblr {and less Facebook}.
And then there’s that number four, again. It was on the card I “randomly” chose for my 7/52 card. I believe in affirmations within the mundane — that there are coincidences collaborating in our favor — when we take notice.
Because this four-of-diamonds is a visual of my habit for planning in quads of activity: four areas of interest and focus. Four quadrants, specific spaces in my mind as well as my dailies.
And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. ~Rainer Maria Rilke
Forty days that feel like a year of progress — following the final forty days of last year — a refinement {and testing} time regarding decisions I made. Acceptance of the necessary allowances to achieve what I truly want in my life. Which includes consistently living in a way that is in sync with my goals and values — and releasing others to do the same.
Because each of us make commitments that are really more of a wish {an emotional promise, lacking follow-through}; a wish more than intention {doable; followed with action} … This is how we learn more about our capacity, our true desires. Who and what we want in our finite lifetime in order to live free in the infinity of our dreams.
Perhaps the truth depends on a walk around the lake. ~Wallace Stevens
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