52 Weeks of Noting {collage and creative record} 47/52 — “repository of unlived things” awaits

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The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance. ~Aristotle

I am seeing parallels between the card/week number of my 52 cards and the details of that year of my life. I will complete this deck just shy of my birthday month {January} and last month of My Year 52. Continue reading

52 Weeks of Noting {collage and creative record} 28/52 — the struggle for wholeness amidst MS + sensory overload

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Wholeness is not achieved by cutting off a portion of one’s being, but by integration of the contraries. ~Carl Jung

It is a difficult reality to live with an illness that steals your ability to sit stilldespite your desperate need for stillness; robs you of focus in the blur of its symptoms; paralyzes your muscles and short-circuits the communication of mobility … and blasts like max-volume, heavy metal music refusing you the right to sleep soundly — despite utter exhaustion. Continue reading

Glue-it Tuesday — Courage to be myself

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We cannot afford not to fight for growth and understanding, even when it is painful, as it is bound to be. ~May Sarton

I’m okay with failing. In terms that what I thought would happen, doesn’t. I have a divot in my wall to prove it. But that is another story … ;) This week’s selection for Glue-it Tuesday is about practicing what is beneficial. Continue reading

Rain-Wrapped Prayers

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… don’t waste
your courage on speed
or squander it in flight.

Everything is at rest:
darkness and light,
blossom and book.
~Rainer Maria Rilke

The best thing one can do when it’s raining is to let it rain. ~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

It has been a week of bittersweet life and death. Events which were expected but that presented difficult realities. The types of realities each of us has trite responses for … “Everything will work out. Have faith.” “It was for the best.” Responses I try to avoid using because even as I type the syllables I feel the shoulder wrap of insensitivity. Continue reading

Pain has no recollection of its bounds; but you can live the questions+believe in momentary possibilities. {baby steps count}

believe you can in minutes

This has been a week of incorporating new ways of coping for me. Pain {physical, mental/emotional} magnifies whatever we face in our dailies. At best, we hold steady as the clock marks the hours of each day {and night}. At worst, we hide away from any attempt to “help” or alter what we face — resisting {in-vain} daring attempts to explain {justify?} what we are facing. Continue reading