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About stargardener

Braveheart, I believe art heals — and that art is as simple as abiding outdoors with the morning sky or jotting lists or having a favorite color. I created Right Brain Planner® because I needed a "planner" that offered space but didn't trigger my daily expectations. I needed a planner that was a journal — a place to creatively document my {living} + collect my blurts and random collage. Perhaps you are in need of the same? If so, I hope you will join me via our shared online connections. ♥

[fullness posts summary] the process of writing as a point of healing

What is important … must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood. -Audre Lorde, The Cancer Journals

For the past two weeks I have been reading pages of Writing as a Way of Healing each morning upon waking; I am in the midst of a “depression self-study” via my writing practice as a scheduled container of time and intention along with making my ICAD art.

Reading was followed by writing and posting excerpts from this book here each morning since the full moon. This is the final entry and includes links to all posts in this series.
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[fullness] promises to ourselves

Current ICAD work station. ♥ Grateful that my hand-me-down desk from my Mimi has a separate pull out work-space. Having everything I need together in one place facilitates honoring my promise to myself to create one card a day through July. [The color wheel was in an envelope of photographs … but I have no idea why it was in there. Perhaps from a stash and dash in the past??]

Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans. -Peter F. Drucker

Commitment is doing the work after we promise ourselves to try; doing our best to honor our intention, and facilitate our actions, even as we stumble through our doing.

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[fullness] night without black

The Café Terrace on the Place du Forum, by Vincent van Gogh

It’s quite true that I may take a blue for a green in the dark, a blue lilac for a pink lilac, since you can’t make out the nature of the tone clearly. But it’s the only way of getting away from the conventional black night … -Vincent van Gogh in a letter to his sister

In exploring Fullness I was originally inspired by the moon’s radiant light on the darkness of the a night sky; allowing fullness to include darkness [feelings unseen, unexpressed; sadness and melancholy].

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[fullness] card-carrying misfits

You have a soul in you of rare quality, an artist’s nature; never let it starve for lack of what it needs. -Marcel Proust

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[fullness] writing as a practice

Things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least. -Goethe

How you do anything is how you do everything. -Zen Proverb

There are seasons of fullness, of being in a place where you are able to engage wholeheartedly in a new practice. Honor your pace; allow the time and space of intention and focus on one thing (a themed-writing project, specific tasks or pursuit, life-changing actions, a topical study).

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[fullness posts summary] how to begin writing as a point of healing

I have been reading pages of Writing as a Way of Healing each morning upon waking; I am in the midst of a “depression self-study” via my writing practice as a scheduled container of time and intention along with making my ICAD art. Followed by writing and posting excerpts from this book here each morning since the full moon. I will continue posting here through the day after the Solstice (June 21).

As I reread content first read at a time in my life when everything felt paused or lost forever, now — in a time when everything feels like a beginning — it is phenomenally energizing! (This book was given to me by my oncology psychologist during treatment for ovarian cancer.)

In chapter 4, DeSalvo points to how to begin writing as a point of healing:

Choosing to Write About Pain, Loss, and Grief

Naturally, they’re afraid. [The students] readily admit it when I ask them. … Anxiety and fear are feelings we’ll learn to tolerate, even welcome. … No growth, no change, occurs without them. If we aren’t committed, if we haven’t chosen something important to write about, I tell them, we’d feel nothing at all.

I’ve suggested that they select a subject to work on that they have returned to often in their thoughts or that they fear thinking about or that they are compelled to examine—one they can write about at sufficient length. … And that once they decide, they honor their subjects and trust that their choice will take them on a writing journey that will necessarily be a healing journey.

Choosing—or rather, finding—our own subject, one that is personally, deeply significant, then, is the first step of the process. Other include learning to work, developing our own authentic voices, and deciding what form our work will take, when our work is finished, and under what conditions we’ll share it.

-Louise DeSalvo, Writing as a Way of Healing

Fullness Series thus far:

[focus: how to begin writing as a point of healing]

  • [link] introduction to this series
  • [link] work is not what you get paid for
  • [link] tipping points, writing & the work of {you}
  • [link] the healing power of your story
  • [link] containers of time, color & space

Investing time for daily writing and self-directed studies to notice and to name, to explore and to learn — to abide and listen in-Spirit — yields an indescribable contentment.

But first, well, it might be exasperating.

We become so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that at last we are disguised to ourselves. -Francois de La Rochefoucauld, Reflections; or Sentences and Moral Maxims

Exasperating because we are known — and often only know ourselves — in disguise with the adornments of shoulds. This is why we resist; it is why we minimize the need for “white space” — solitude, rest and reflection.

[fullness] containers of time, color & space

So one of the things about art is, it offers a safe place for you to have quite extreme and rather dangerous feelings. And the reason you can do that is because you know you can switch it off. So art has a kind of role there as a simulator. -Brian Eno

My journal-planners filled with collage, found words and notations are my art; safe containers for random thoughts, daring feelings and other discombobulations. My ICAD collection for this summer is also a safe place. Continue reading