there are no certain routes: art & intimacy

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Art involves intimacy with yourself, but also with other people. It is a way of being close and exchanging love. -Sheila Heti

The need for intimacy with myself was the first hurdle concerning my intention to overcome what felt like constant burnout. I realize now I believed a false value for measurable productivity.

Measured productivity only as a completed project plan — dated progress points, with definitive starting and end points — or public recognition or compensation: publication, income, popularity [brand and name recognition, number of “followers” or referrals].

[currently reading] The Principles of Uncertainty by Maira Kalman

Intimacy with myself required that I meander; to allow ease and curiosity to take the lead of each day. It eventually required I pause my service projects and personal commitments; the time and energy required was costing all that I had available.

Intimacy with other people had become a diversion from investing my time and energy into my art.

I didn’t realize this at the time, but because I inaccurately valued measurable productivity — I didn’t value my work or intimacy with myself.

There was no set schedule, I wasn’t working from any type of plan and earning only a minimal income. My mindset was “Why not give my time and energy to others?” I was doing what was in my heart and giving to people for whom I cared deeply.

How could honoring what was in my heart be in error?

It wasn’t. It simply needed re-calibrating. ♥

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Braveheart, I believe art heals — and that art is as simple as abiding outdoors with the morning sky or jotting lists or having a favorite color. I created Right Brain Planner™ because I needed a "planner" that offered space but didn't trigger my daily expectations. I needed a planner that was a journal — a place to creatively document my {living} + collect my blurts and random collage. Perhaps you are in need of the same? If so, I hope you will join me via our shared online connections. ♥